I WAS hard at work getting things in order, but then I had a bleh attack. That’s when my goals seem pointless and useless and I usually play hours of Heroes of Might and Magic and then feel terrible. This time I distracted myself with house cleaning and hanging out with friends. At least I felt good afterward unlike the computer game diversions.
It was followed by visiting relatives. They are wonderful people and I am happy that they are in my life, but its making my work schedule a bit nonexistent. Wednesday we all go to the beach.
The morale improvement plan is to finish formatting my heart pattern TODAY. Then I can send it to my test knitters and get a few steps closer to actually posting it, 2 weeks after my goal. My goal was a little intense. In the end I’ll say I’m 1 week behind where I could have reasonably been. I’ve decided that is ok but I’m still feeling the press to get to work.
I also have some funny money things going on and will need to make $100 next month to honor some new obligations. This is exciting! I’ve had debt for a long time, but I kind of ignored it recently. The payments were still made, but it had become a gargantuan beast to whom I had surrendered all hope. My debt restructuring has given me hope that I can actually do something about this so for the first time in a long long time, I am looking forward to giving money to my creditor. I must say it definitely makes a difference to my little brain that I am in debt to someone I know and not some vague company that has people form the South call me whenever I sneeze.
So perhaps tomorrow I will actually have something to declare in my post, instead of listing the events and personal struggles that have kept me from getting where I wanted to go when I wanted to arrive. I can live with that.